Beloved Grandma

Grandma left us on 18th nov 

i was working on 17th nov , 7plus pm received a text

from WS my 3rd bro, that grandma fainted 

mum is with her on the way to hospital

 called mum to ask which hospital they went

called my boss to inform him that i have to go off right away

met up with WS at novena station and hurry off to 

A&E at Tan Tock Seng Hospital

 my mum , 2nd bro & sis-in-law were there already

we waited at the waiting room for update 

around 8 plus we went to see the doctor ,

 he showed us the scan of grandma's head 

from above eyebrow, he explained that there are 
blood in her brain and is 60% brain damaged

 

he told us to prepare for worst 

as grandma can't take operation 

 she will become vegetative patient even

she able to survive, the thought of her 

won't be able to talk , no more reaction

break my heart and we cried

 called all the relatives to come down right away,

 WS & me went back to mrt station to wait for dad. 

while waiting there, cousin JS along with his gf 

reached and next my eldest bro WM soon after dad too

we quickly walked back and met up with the rest

but was told to wait as they are transferring grandma

 to ward which it took about 2 hour to do so .. 

it was already near 11pm at that time   

when we finally able to see grandma 

she was in coma, she was struggling to breathe hard

all her sons and daughter were already by her side 

except for my 3rd uncle the only one still not there 

at around 2 plus am some uncle already went back

dad, Wm & Wj were asked to go home too 

as they're working in morning, 3rd uncle reached

shortly after with some of his friend .. 

after 3rd uncle talked to grandma , her heartbeat start

going lower and lower, her blood pressure

 went higher and higher. uncle's friend say 

 ( he can see those "thing" )

grandma cannot make it already and 

they were asking her to go peacefully i quickly texted Wj

to update him and he rushed back to hospital again

after awhile 3rd uncle went off with his friend

WJ reached and we just stay at grandma side 

she was breathing hard and slowly

 she not breathing anymore but

 her heartbeat was still beating for awhile 

and soon she totally gone at 3plus am

after everything done , only left me, 

WS , Mum, Auntie, 4th Uncle & his wife 

This is my first time going in mortuary

and it felt so terrible to see grandma there

after that we went home had a quick shower

 went out for breakfast and bought some new clothing 

for grandma to wear for her wake

( to be continue )

Special Post For My Brothers & Sis-In-Law

this post is specially for

 my 2nd bro WJ and sis - in - law - QL

 not forgetting my 3rd bro WS

actually i kinda envy of our cousins

 their bf / gf can get along well with each other

at that time i was thinking why we can't be like them

going out together as a group happily 

                                

For Sis-In-Law QL

i understand that you are not a bad lady

i know you don't have intension to hurt us

 with words in the beginning too

its was our wrong to give you nickname 

in the first place but we stopped ever since 

WJ requested us not to be mean after the

 first few meeting with you as he told us you cried

i'm sorry that we made you cried 

i know it's been hard for you 

because WJ have immature bro & sis

who can't accept their elder bro

giving more attention to his gf back then 

i understand WS felt leftout and lonely

when i have boyfriend, you and WJ 

was trying to cheer him up by helping him

with the nicknames things 

i call it a quit if only that was done privately

but i was very upset because you all did it publicly

 i don't like it when outsider ( those at fb ) poked their nose

into our family's matter like seeing a free show

anyway all were past already

let's not mention unhappy things up in future

 

i welcome you as new family member

i hope everyone get along well in future

family is for lifetime, let's us all be happy family

For My 2nd Bro WJ

 remember the times you called

me to chat while i was working in the past?

i told you that i support you and QL

relationship, i thought you would do 

the same for me in the beginning 

when i have a boyfriend 

so i was upset when you didn't

i understand you care for me

maybe afraid that i will get hurt

especially this was my first relationship

maybe you all don't understand why

parents support and approved of my relationship

one day parent told me they are afraid

 that i can't find a boyfriend

with my this quiet personality

 so when i told them i was going out 

with a guy some times later

they were happy about it especially he is a decent guy

compared to another one which i asked parent for advice 

i know you're unhappy when i stay out late

with my boyfriend, i hope you understand 

during that time i was working very long hour

i only have 1 offday, and i travel by public transport

the times i spend with him was short

i understand parent worry for me to cab home alone

so they suggested to fetch me late at night and

this actions caused you guys unhappy 

i hope you all know

i am already adult , i have to go through

all this stages even if it fail , no pain no gain 

i will take good care of myself and responsible

for all my own decision and action 

you said that i'm always your sister no matter what

i wanna say you're my brother no matter what too  

i hope you will continue to love QL

like how you always do no matter

 how many years later 

CONGRATULATION TO YOU AND QL

 Super Long Post But Not The End Yet!

For My 3rd Bro WS

   

I know you got read my blog :P

i want you to know , you will never be alone

WJ and QL married, I have boyfriend

but doesn't means we forgot about you

i really hope you find your right girl soon

and looking forward one day we could all

go out together as a family group happily

don't be afraid, don't be shy

we both got close personality 

if i can step out , you can do it too 

always remember we're always here for you!

It's My Brother's Big Day !

11 / 11 / 2012 

is a special day

morning a simple tea ceremony

to grandma from my 2nd bro & sis-in-law

yes she is my 2nd sis-in-law right now

CONGRATULATION TO THEM!

 my parent, eldest bro & me

took a cab down hotel & reached at 5pm

met up with my 3rd bro who accompany

my 2nd bro since this morning

we went in to wrong waiting room

quite funny actually as it was empty

 so we thought we're in the right room

played phone camera with my dad

until awhile my 2nd bro came in and

said that is not the right room

seriously L.O.L

6pm ceremony started

after that , tea ceremony for both

family & relatives

7.30pm went in dinner room

soon they came in and settle down

video of their pictures started

saw 2 pictures of my eldest bro with 2nd bro

when they were very young, kinda touched

cos of our age gap with eldest bro

he doesn't really talk to us

always seem coldly toward us

but we do have some memories

with eldest bro, although he might

not remember but for me i do..

he use money to solve quarrel between

me & 3rd bro when we were very young

he like to disturb me by calling my names

many times and says he called for fun

he gave me teddy bear for birthday

when i was about sec 1 or 2

i believe 2nd bro & 3rd bro

have their own version of memories

with my eldest brother too

my family are all not good at expressing

family love.. we all felt awkward ,

uncomfortable to do so -.-"

ate till 2nd or 3rd dishes they

went to change for evening gown

came back and had some speech

to all my bro

i just wanna say, no matter how big

the age gap is between all of us

 we're forever family

here some blur pictures

it's really nice & comfortable

pretty nice roses

Menu

purse i brought along

contained mainly tissues

and my handphone :D

will update more picture tomorrow

and maybe a post delicated to

2nd bro & sis-in-law

if i not feeling lazy ... :X



Cut my hair again ~

yesterday asked bf to cut my hair again

too much damaged hair and no shape

it look kinda like the first time

he cut for me , not much different

except that bye to more damaged hair

  

picture taken a day before cut

today .. after the cut

no different right? haha actually it does, 
as i asked bf cut those at the back shorter
which is can't see in this picture

anyway i have to blur out the background
as bf remind me before not to disclose
my working place .. to prevent weird people

by the way

  my boss msged me yesterday at 8pm 

that i've to work at another outlet this

3 days and i only saw the msg at 1plus am -.-"

anyway after i log-in the shop i went to 

fairprice which is just above the shop to buy

 ( as picture below )

  

so far i ate 2 slices of corn bread 

with peanut butter , grass jelly with palm seeds  

i love the corn bread alots !

the grass jelly not that nice,

not sweet enough for me :X

anyway gonna eat the apple chips later 

if it taste nice, i will buy another packet

to share with bf later tonight :D