Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Beloved Grandma

Grandma left us on 18th nov 

i was working on 17th nov , 7plus pm received a text
from WS my 3rd bro, that grandma fainted 
mum is with her on the way to hospital

 called mum to ask which hospital they went
called my boss to inform him that i have to go off right away

met up with WS at novena station and hurry off to 
A&E at Tan Tock Seng Hospital

 my mum , 2nd bro & sis-in-law were there already
we waited at the waiting room for update 

around 8 plus we went to see the doctor ,
 he showed us the scan of grandma's head 
from above eyebrow, he explained that there are 
blood in her brain and is 60% brain damaged
he told us to prepare for worst 
as grandma can't take operation 
 she will become vegetative patient even
she able to survive, the thought of her 
won't be able to talk , no more reaction
break my heart and we cried

 called all the relatives to come down right away,
 WS & me went back to mrt station to wait for dad. 
while waiting there, cousin JS along with his gf 
reached and next my eldest bro WM soon after dad too

we quickly walked back and met up with the rest
but was told to wait as they are transferring grandma
 to ward which it took about 2 hour to do so .. 
it was already near 11pm at that time   

when we finally able to see grandma 
she was in coma, she was struggling to breathe hard
all her sons and daughter were already by her side 
except for my 3rd uncle the only one still not there 

at around 2 plus am some uncle already went back
dad, Wm & Wj were asked to go home too 
as they're working in morning, 3rd uncle reached
shortly after with some of his friend .. 

after 3rd uncle talked to grandma , her heartbeat start
going lower and lower, her blood pressure
 went higher and higher. uncle's friend say 

 ( he can see those "thing" )

grandma cannot make it already and 
they were asking her to go peacefully i quickly texted Wj
to update him and he rushed back to hospital again
after awhile 3rd uncle went off with his friend

WJ reached and we just stay at grandma side 
she was breathing hard and slowly
 she not breathing anymore but
 her heartbeat was still beating for awhile 
and soon she totally gone at 3plus am

after everything done , only left me, 
WS , Mum, Auntie, 4th Uncle & his wife 

This is my first time going in mortuary
and it felt so terrible to see grandma there
after that we went home had a quick shower
 went out for breakfast and bought some new clothing 
for grandma to wear for her wake

( to be continue )

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Special Post For My Brothers & Sis-In-Law

this post is specially for
 my 2nd bro WJ and sis - in - law - QL
 not forgetting my 3rd bro WS

actually i kinda envy of our cousins
 their bf / gf can get along well with each other

at that time i was thinking why we can't be like them
going out together as a group happily 
For Sis-In-Law QL

i understand that you are not a bad lady
i know you don't have intension to hurt us
 with words in the beginning too

its was our wrong to give you nickname 
in the first place but we stopped ever since 
WJ requested us not to be mean after the
 first few meeting with you as he told us you cried

i'm sorry that we made you cried 
i know it's been hard for you 

because WJ have immature bro & sis
who can't accept their elder bro
giving more attention to his gf back then 

i understand WS felt leftout and lonely
when i have boyfriend, you and WJ 
was trying to cheer him up by helping him
with the nicknames things 

i call it a quit if only that was done privately
but i was very upset because you all did it publicly
 i don't like it when outsider ( those at fb ) poked their nose
into our family's matter like seeing a free show

anyway all were past already
let's not mention unhappy things up in future
i welcome you as new family member
i hope everyone get along well in future
family is for lifetime, let's us all be happy family

For My 2nd Bro WJ

 remember the times you called
me to chat while i was working in the past?

i told you that i support you and QL
relationship, i thought you would do 
the same for me in the beginning 
when i have a boyfriend 

so i was upset when you didn't
i understand you care for me
maybe afraid that i will get hurt

especially this was my first relationship
maybe you all don't understand why
parents support and approved of my relationship

one day parent told me they are afraid
 that i can't find a boyfriend
with my this quiet personality

 so when i told them i was going out 
with a guy some times later

they were happy about it especially he is a decent guy
compared to another one which i asked parent for advice 

i know you're unhappy when i stay out late
with my boyfriend, i hope you understand 
during that time i was working very long hour
i only have 1 offday, and i travel by public transport

the times i spend with him was short
i understand parent worry for me to cab home alone
so they suggested to fetch me late at night and
this actions caused you guys unhappy 

i hope you all know
i am already adult , i have to go through
all this stages even if it fail , no pain no gain 

i will take good care of myself and responsible
for all my own decision and action 

you said that i'm always your sister no matter what
i wanna say you're my brother no matter what too  

i hope you will continue to love QL
like how you always do no matter
 how many years later 


 Super Long Post But Not The End Yet!

For My 3rd Bro WS
I know you got read my blog :P

i want you to know , you will never be alone
WJ and QL married, I have boyfriend
but doesn't means we forgot about you

i really hope you find your right girl soon
and looking forward one day we could all
go out together as a family group happily

don't be afraid, don't be shy
we both got close personality 
if i can step out , you can do it too 

always remember we're always here for you!

Monday, November 12, 2012

It's My Brother's Big Day !

11 / 11 / 2012 

is a special day

morning a simple tea ceremony
to grandma from my 2nd bro & sis-in-law

yes she is my 2nd sis-in-law right now


 my parent, eldest bro & me
took a cab down hotel & reached at 5pm

met up with my 3rd bro who accompany
my 2nd bro since this morning

we went in to wrong waiting room
quite funny actually as it was empty
 so we thought we're in the right room

played phone camera with my dad
until awhile my 2nd bro came in and
said that is not the right room

seriously L.O.L

6pm ceremony started
after that , tea ceremony for both
family & relatives

7.30pm went in dinner room
soon they came in and settle down
video of their pictures started

saw 2 pictures of my eldest bro with 2nd bro
when they were very young, kinda touched

cos of our age gap with eldest bro
he doesn't really talk to us
always seem coldly toward us

but we do have some memories
with eldest bro, although he might
not remember but for me i do..

he use money to solve quarrel between
me & 3rd bro when we were very young

he like to disturb me by calling my names
many times and says he called for fun

he gave me teddy bear for birthday
when i was about sec 1 or 2

i believe 2nd bro & 3rd bro
have their own version of memories
with my eldest brother too

my family are all not good at expressing
family love.. we all felt awkward ,
uncomfortable to do so -.-"

ate till 2nd or 3rd dishes they
went to change for evening gown
came back and had some speech

to all my bro
i just wanna say, no matter how big
the age gap is between all of us
 we're forever family

here some blur pictures

it's really nice & comfortable

pretty nice roses


purse i brought along
contained mainly tissues
and my handphone :D

will update more picture tomorrow
and maybe a post delicated to
2nd bro & sis-in-law
if i not feeling lazy ... :X

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Cut my hair again ~

yesterday asked bf to cut my hair again
too much damaged hair and no shape

it look kinda like the first time
he cut for me , not much different
except that bye to more damaged hair
picture taken a day before cut

today .. after the cut

no different right? haha actually it does, 
as i asked bf cut those at the back shorter
which is can't see in this picture

anyway i have to blur out the background
as bf remind me before not to disclose
my working place .. to prevent weird people

by the way

  my boss msged me yesterday at 8pm 
that i've to work at another outlet this
3 days and i only saw the msg at 1plus am -.-"

anyway after i log-in the shop i went to 
fairprice which is just above the shop to buy

 ( as picture below )

so far i ate 2 slices of corn bread 
with peanut butter , grass jelly with palm seeds  

i love the corn bread alots !

the grass jelly not that nice,
not sweet enough for me :X

anyway gonna eat the apple chips later 
if it taste nice, i will buy another packet
to share with bf later tonight :D